kenrus

27.11.08

Listen carefully all my friends out there!
Today I did something that is going to change my entirely history,
the history of mankind!
I've accepted and signed the appointment letter with the MOE!
I am now a civil servant, a general education officer, a servant of GOD!
WOW!! full of expectation! life changing event! eagerly waiting for the next move of GOD!

I am going to renew mindset, influence individual, change city, transform nation!
All for the glory and kingdom of God!

signing off with love at 9:11 PM
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24.11.08

wow, today i received my appointment letter from the MOE.

but, it does not turn out to be what i have expected.

hmm... any clue?

signing off with love at 6:17 PM
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The last few weeks had been a testing period for me.

The test of faith

After 3 days of serious prompting from God to tender my resignation from my current firm (of which the last one came with a 'if you don't you'll know... kind of attachment), I finally mustered courage to inform my boss of my resignation. Obviously, he was taken aback, shocked and wanting to find out the cause of my sudden decision.

"You always planned before you make any decision so we were puzzled why when you did not seem to have any plan."

Yes I don't have a plan for it is God's plan. So you can imagine the anxiety I have within me. I guess it was the same as when Abram left his tribe when God commanded him. The mix feeling of expectation, fear and doubt was mixed up. As much as I don't really want to do it because I have no plan, I cannot ignore it. Hey! I rather loose a job than to loose my God. And of course God will never allow his child to suffer and all things will eventually work for good to those who love Him and to those who are created according to His purpose. But I am no saint. As I was desperately praying and proclaiming that God has a greater and better plan for me, my faith seems to be able to only last through one night and the next day, my faith will be gone. And scary thought began to creep into my mind.

Valid thoughts like,

"Are you sure you hear right from God."

"Quitting in the midst of economy recession? Are you serious"

"What are you going to do next"

"You boss is going to be so sad and disappointed."

"If God cannot bring you the blessings in time, you will be in deep trouble!"

"Why are you so stupid, giving up all these after almost 3 years of hard work?"

It was a period of roller coaster ride and I know and I know I have to trust Him this time. So I became a living person with duo thoughts. I cannot focus, I cannot perform. I became unstable.

Well God is faithful and He began to reveal hints to me. During the last discipleship sessions, I was pleasantly surprised as my fellow cell group leaders take turn to speak and prophesy over my life. I became strengthen but still I was struggling a little.

It was then I decided to share my little testimony of thanking God first before receiving them. I thank God that He has greater purpose in my life and that He has finally released me from my current firm and I will continue my next phase of journey which I believe will be something. SOT perhaps and even teaching.

Then things start to change. God began to reveal His plan to me in parts. All of these took place during the week.

Monday 16/11 - at home

before leaving for work, my mum expressed that I should keep my printer because she thought that i would need it for my NIE course!

Tuesday 17/11 - at the void deck of my flat

Minutes I stepped out of my house, my friend, Issac, called me asked me my life in NIE.

"I am not there yet," I explained, "I'm still waiting for result."

"really? But I thought you are already in it!"

Thursday 20/11 - asia conference hall 8 Charlie arena 02

I was escorted to sit on an empty seat at the front row. What a privilege! That's not it. As I talked to the photographer who sat beside me, lo and behold! I found out that he is going through the last few months in NIE and he is going to teach science in VJC. After speaking and sharing with him, I turned to my another neighbour, she is in NUS doing Geography and she said. "oh I'm planning to go NIE too!"

Friday 21/11 am - asia conference hall 8 Delta terrace 04

I began to realise that GOD is sending me to NIE. duh~ Then guess what, this japanese teacher from Taiwan sat beside me. I was greatly encourage. After that service, I checked my phone and found this sms:-

we are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted ....

wow! I flew. praise God.

But this is not the end.

I was happy but I knew God is showing more because now, instead of considering between job A and job B, I was considering between school A and school B. So I prayed, visualised, proclaimed that I will teach two schools, SJI (my choice), RI (God's recommendation). Then again, a spiritual prompting, focus on one. Needless to say, I focus on SJI.

Friday 21/11 pm - asia conference Internal Traffic.

I met this usher, a nice one by the name of Adam. And he was from SJI and I exclaimed, I am going to teach in your school. He said come, it will be fun. (actually as i think about it, all the youth who are still schooling are very encouraging when they know that I applied for teaching. One even said, wow, if you are my teacher, I'll study harder!) So that day I decided that it is going to be SJI... still there is this prompting.

Saturday 22/11

the prompting continues - it is not SJI

Sunday 23/11 - asia conference Internal Traffic.

I met Aileen while serving and we tried our best to catch up with one another within the brief time we have. After learning that I am going to teach, she exclaimed, "Raffles?"

I was shocked and ask why.

"I don't know, just felt that it is Raffles"

I knew immediately, God wants to send me to teach in Raffles Institution. Wow praise God.

During the praise and worship, God reveals that it is the kiros moment, God has created an opening and boom I'm in. It is more than faith now, it is a conviction and a strong one. Praise God.

I'm convicted, I'm renewed. The scholars, they need God. The intellectual, they need God, The wealthy, they need God. The influential, they need God. Amen!

By His grace, I will be the most exciting, creative and spirit-filled history and art teacher in Raffles Institution where I will minister to future ministers, leaders and kings who will in turn impact the world through their reforms and policies.